Love at First Sight

If you haven’t already heard…it’s a boy! We could not be more thrilled. Honestly, Bill would have been happy with either gender, but I really wanted a little boy and from day one had a feeling that our little one would be made of frogs and snails and puppy-dogs’ tails. So you can imagine my delight when it was confirmed that I was in fact having a boy!

During the ultrasound, I felt much like Rachel Green from Friends during her first ultrasound. In the scene, the technician points out to Ross and Rachel on the grainy black and white screen their little one. Rachel says, “Oh wow.” The technician leaves her and Ross alone to take in the moment. After the technician leaves, Rachel begins crying. Ross thinks it’s because she is overwhelmed, but she then exclaims, “I can’t see it!” referring to the baby as she points to the screen. Ross says, “What? But you just said you could.” To which Rachel says, “I didn’t want her to think that I am a bad mother!”

During my ultrasound, both the technician and Bill were talking about the various pictures of the baby. “And see, there is the foot,” she said as Bill asked more questions about this or that. I spent the time saying, “Oh, yeah. Pretty cool,” though I had no idea what I was looking at or what they were talking about. I was just trying to fit in. In my defense, I was laying down looking at the screen from an awkward angle with my already poor eye sight while they both had front row seats, but regardless, it was hard for me to get into the moment. It wasn’t until she printed the photos and I was able to look at them flat against my nose that I realized the amazing detail that the photos revealed. There was a face! And little arms and sweet little fingers. It wasn’t some silhouette with a general idea of what is to be. It was an actual photograph of a little boy… my little boy!


Now, I am normally not for the posting of in-utero photos. As fascinating as they are, they are grainy and not that flattering. Plus, the kid still has a lot of growing (and forming) to do. But I absolutely fell in love with this photo. He looks so peaceful in his deep slumber while he curls up against my body like it is the most comfortable pillow in the world. The photo is now the background picture on my phone. Every time I look at it, my heart melts. It makes me yearn to kiss his sweet little face and tickle his tiny toes. Now, I often find myself daydreaming about what it will be like to meet him and hold him. Seeing his photo definitely brought love at first sight.