I know that I have been totally slacking on the blog updates, but let me just say, “Holy pregnancy brain!” One reason that I have not been updating the blog much is because, quite frankly, I can no longer write. It frightens me a little. My I.Q. has dropped by about 50 points. Just the other day, I was trying to type “broadcast.” But I kept writing “prodcast” and then got incredibly frustrated because spell check was not recognizing the word. “Stupid spell check! What good are you?!” Then it dawned on me, after about 5 minutes, that “broadcast” does not in fact start with a “p” but a “b.” Clearly spell check is just not equipped to deal with my new special needs.
I’m even having difficulty with numbers. I had to replay a voice message more than ten times because I kept writing down the wrong number. It was like my ears, brain and hands were not connecting, no matter how hard I worked to get them in sync.
I am fairly O.C.D. when it comes to my writing. And now that my writing and spelling and grammar and proofreading has become completely erratic, I don’t know what to do! I feel like I am experiencing a really bad high. Things aren’t as they appear and I am totally paranoid that I will never go back to normal.
I suppose I do feel a bit better having put this all out there. At least if I end up posting complete gibberish, you’ll know that I have not started using drugs, I’m just high on oxytocin.*
*oxytocin is a pregnancy hormone. Fun fact: “Certain learning and memory functions are impaired by centrally administered oxytocin” (Wikipedia).
